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...do you know how badly my face hurts?
I can't wait to go to the dentist's today.
Yeah. That bad.
I can't wait to go to the dentist's today.
Yeah. That bad.
December 29th, 2005
Gratitious 'new icon' post.
I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, at all. I get to have the tooth that's been causing me problems pulled, which promises to be loads of fun. At least it will be an end to the problems, and maybe this slight black eye thing will go away.
One of the upsides to this is that my teeth are horribly crowded in my mouth to begin with, so having this one taken out might make things settle more. I apparently have quite a small mouth, which is why my braces failed and some of my teeth are still messed up. (Or something along those lines.)
I've got a healthy dose of painkillers in me now, which don't seem to be affecting me in the slightest. Well, I take that back - the side of my face isn't throbbing anymore, but I meant in any other sense. When my brother had vicodin in him he was loopy. Maybe it just hasn't been long enough.
Not that I'm pleased to be on these painkillers. The threat of anything that could make me not be in control of myself makes me nervous... I'd almost take the pain over the simple threat of being loopy out of my mind. My mom practically had to shove the pills down my throat. >.>
And on top of that, tomorrow looms over me and it's terrified me out of my mind. I've never had any sort of surgery or any sort of procedure that requires me to be put under. I know it's common, and I logically know that it's nothing to be afraid of but it frightens me deeply. I don't like the idea of things being done to me while I'm unconcious. I don't like it at all.
Logically I can process that it's nothing to be worried over. Realistically, I know it's something that has to be done, especially if I want to not be in pain. Both of those things do nothing to quell the huge knot of terror that's settled firmly in my stomach.
I just want this year to be over.
One of the upsides to this is that my teeth are horribly crowded in my mouth to begin with, so having this one taken out might make things settle more. I apparently have quite a small mouth, which is why my braces failed and some of my teeth are still messed up. (Or something along those lines.)
I've got a healthy dose of painkillers in me now, which don't seem to be affecting me in the slightest. Well, I take that back - the side of my face isn't throbbing anymore, but I meant in any other sense. When my brother had vicodin in him he was loopy. Maybe it just hasn't been long enough.
Not that I'm pleased to be on these painkillers. The threat of anything that could make me not be in control of myself makes me nervous... I'd almost take the pain over the simple threat of being loopy out of my mind. My mom practically had to shove the pills down my throat. >.>
And on top of that, tomorrow looms over me and it's terrified me out of my mind. I've never had any sort of surgery or any sort of procedure that requires me to be put under. I know it's common, and I logically know that it's nothing to be afraid of but it frightens me deeply. I don't like the idea of things being done to me while I'm unconcious. I don't like it at all.
Logically I can process that it's nothing to be worried over. Realistically, I know it's something that has to be done, especially if I want to not be in pain. Both of those things do nothing to quell the huge knot of terror that's settled firmly in my stomach.
I just want this year to be over.
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